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Mothering has been the loudest experience of my life ... oh my goodness, this is it 💜

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Right x

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Sending lots of love, Kerri.

And definitely no need to reply. I've been mothering for over 37 years now to 4 amazing people and it morphs, we learn to withdraw territory, we make different relationships with time, but those relationships are alwsy centre-stage and consuming, and should be. Resonated deeply with what you say about br(e)aking -- I broke a rib in January and it keeps opening each time I think it's a little better -- I know it's not 'only' physical -- nothing ever is.

I love your plans for change, ceremony and choice.

Go gently with your wonderful self x

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You too love x

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Hi Kerri, I have wondered how, when you are so busy inspiring others, how you manage to stay inspired yourself, particularly in these difficult times we are moving through. You may remember my outpouring at the Common Knowledge, I didn't intend for that to happen, but your workshop released a blockage in me, and I am so grateful to you for that. My creativity has manifested in other unexpected ways this past year, which have taken me on joyous paths outside of writing, but now I find these paths beginning to converge. Sometimes, creativity is a leaping flame that must be fed, sometimes a smoulder waiting to leap into life via a new or different fuel source. 💕

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Your words here are so powerful 💔❤️

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So much resonance with the failures, Kerri. I wrote a note about mine just last night. I needed to name it to be free of them in a way - to release myself from the shame of their weight - and I hope writing this helps you too in some way. I see you. I am with you. 🧡

(And thank you for mentioning Weathering 🩶🪨) xx

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🪨🖤🖤🖤

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Oh gosh, Kerri, feeling this so so deeply. I am wrapping you in a big squishy blanket of love. I too have broken many many times... my body too says no more and I am forced into stillness. When will I learn to take heed of it's messages?! Thank you for sharing this raw and honest piece that I am sure so many will relate to. I hope you are finding time for stillness in the noisiness of motherhood and life on this planet. I am going to sow some seeds today x

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Seeds are always the answer x

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Somehow you always write what I need to read, Kerri. 🤍

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This means so much from you xx

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🤍🤍🤍

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Oh my heart — gratitude for your words Kerri and how you share the struggle of mothering and living. It reminded me of my journey of becoming a Clinical Herbalist. Graduated from the first level a week after my daughter was born and did not get back to complete the 2nd and 3rd levels until 10 years later. During that time I had frustration and disappointment, but it wasn’t until I completed my training did I realize I wouldn’t have been the herbalist I was without taking that time to be an herbalist and mother to my daughter and then take that knowledge & living into my next trainings. That is not to say your dear third book will take 10 years! 🩵 But that the book and time and words will come and with that all the wisdom and experience of living your days as a busy tired overwhelmed joyful momma and woman. And your book when it is birthed will be so much the better for it. I don’t know what it takes to write a book and I’m so in awe of all that your write. But know, though just in comments here, that I/we are supporting you and appreciate your presence here so much. 🌳 🌸

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I appreciate this comment so so much XX love to you

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Beautiful. And so very relatable. It has been such a noisy week for me - filled with emotional eating, anxiety, dread, and just general crankiness. “This is not to say I’ll have blinders up to the world, rather that I will focus on making my ability to bear witness more sustainable.” Cheers to making more art, and allowing stillness so we can bear witness without crumbling.

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Love to you x

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I love it when a piece of writing comes to you at exactly the right moment. I got diagnosed with CFS earlier this week, a real breaking moment after being frazzled too long. I have been adrift, struggling to even imagine what slowing down and relaxing look like. I'm not sure I'll even pick the same three things, but three things is a great start, and I hope they are working well for you. Thank you.

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Sending deep rest and hugs x

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Today I saw the first tulips – deep purple like the chrysanthemum on Cacophony's paperback cover. Haunted by the heartbreaking and heart-filling poem you shared at the poetry event for Mosab Abu Toha last night. We women hold so many things. Sending all the love, Kerri, hoping you find some equinox balance and stillness xx

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💜💜 big love sister x

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Thank you, Kerri, for your beautiful honesty, and for drawing us all into a circle of goodness and support. It's just a wonderful thing to be with each other in these times. May you find the stillness you need to nurture your sweet creative spirit.

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I’ve just copied the whole paragraph that starts “I have mothering has been the loudest experience my life” into my journal because, yes this is exactly it! Thank you for putting something I couldn’t quite articulate into words - will be mulling them over all day.

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That means so much to read x

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Beautiful words Kerri, thank you so much for openly talking about this need for a still point in the creative life… I dance between craving space and stillness and also needing to feed myself with writing and making things… sometime I wonder if that’s coming from me or the outside world, but it feels nourishing so I continue to find a way to squeeze it in around the edges or Mothering and paid work. I am so grateful to you for speaking of this because it’s so often unspoken. Thank you. I am feeling the craving to tidy my space and declutter and set a new scene for my art. Oh and I adore the idea of the seed cards… what a beautiful thought. I’ve done similar with writing prompts before and affirmations… but never just simple words and that feels so wonderful. Xxx

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Beautiful words Kerri, thank you so much for openly talking about this need for a still point in the creative life… I dance between craving space and stillness and also needing to feed myself with writing and making things… sometime I wonder if that’s coming from me or the outside world, but it feels nourishing so I continue to find a way to squeeze it in around the edges or Mothering and paid work. I am so grateful to you for speaking of this because it’s so often unspoken. Thank you. I am feeling the craving to tidy my space and declutter and set a new scene for my art. Oh and I adore the idea of the seed cards… what a beautiful thought. I’ve done similar with writing prompts before and affirmations… but never just simple words and that feels so wonderful. Xxx

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I love you … and I love silence more than anything in the world too. Silence is the best healer 💛💛💛

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It so is sister 💗 love you too

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Thank you Kerri! Your words always make me feel so hopeful. Love your three plans/intentions and wow, motherhood TRULY is the loudest experience of my life as well 💛

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Hope is everything x

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