This was beautiful to read. The way you write about that inner conflict of knowing, logically, that the way you're feeling doesn't match up with what others, or world events, is telling you you should be feeling/experiencing. And, having read and loved Thin Places, it's heartwarming to hear that, this time, for now, the conflict is being won in your favour, almost a feeling of a role reversal - by that I mean, to feel joyful in a struggling world, as opposed to that numb feeling of suffering in a world that others seem to be experiencing as joyful.
I hope that makes sense, and I hope I haven't overstepped in taking that from my reading of it.
This was beautiful to read. The way you write about that inner conflict of knowing, logically, that the way you're feeling doesn't match up with what others, or world events, is telling you you should be feeling/experiencing. And, having read and loved Thin Places, it's heartwarming to hear that, this time, for now, the conflict is being won in your favour, almost a feeling of a role reversal - by that I mean, to feel joyful in a struggling world, as opposed to that numb feeling of suffering in a world that others seem to be experiencing as joyful.
I hope that makes sense, and I hope I haven't overstepped in taking that from my reading of it.
clarity.